pictures will be up on myspace…..
finally made it!!
And who said young moms can’t be successful??? FUCK EM!! I made it….this is all for you baby girl!! MOMMY LOVES YOU!! You are my strength…you have always been and WILL ALWAYS REMAIN my inspiration/dedication/motivation for life. WE made it to this point TOGETHER!!
I’ll be blogging on myspace now. I won’t be able to update on a regular basis but I’ll try my best to keep everybody updated on how I’m doing.
This is my last semester of nursing school so I KNOW I’m gonna have a lot of stress I’m gonna need to disperse of somehow! I’m sorry I haven’t been commenting/keeping in touch the way I used to…but we all know how life can get super hectic.
Thx to everybody who still checks up on me. I hope everybody had a VERRRRRY HAPPY HOLIDAYS & started this new year on a good foot! Wish me luck for this next semester coming up! ** NEW PICTURES in my photoblog!! **
damn–long ass time since my last entry
i seriously thought i’d be able to blog more since its the summer–but since the summer began all i do is work NONSTOP then
spend time w/family when i get the chance. I haven’t even had the
chance to catch up on my drinking habit–HEHEHE–as if i even had one
work is BADASS!! i loveeeee being there–even
on the worst of days i still love it. when i’m working i feel
useful–and wanted. its not like when all i’m doing is studying. when
its school time i just feel like i’m working for free.
to catch up on things–kim graduated from pre-K. she’s gonna be starting KINDERGARTEN this
year. i’m pretty sure i’m gonna be able to bring her in for her 1st
day. might even hang around for a little bit just to make sure she’s
ok. i’m sooooo nervous for her. she does great in her pre-K program
she’s in now but the class is smaller and more focused on each
individual child. now she has a more serious curriculum & slightly
more pressure. i know its all about “satisfactory & unsatisfactory” but i have HIGH hopes for my child. I KNOW I KNOW!! thats NOT good–its
too much pressure. to me–depending on the pressure–maybe it’ll be a
good thing?!? i’m gonna try my damndest to keep it in control–but i
expect my baby to be in the honor roll/honor society. i expect her to
strive for WANTING to be in the talented & gifted group. i’m want
her to strive for more than what i’ve earned for myself.
thats what pushes me so much to earn my degree. its been a known fact
that children raised in a family that focuses attention on education
end up working hard & achieving higher degrees than their parents
before them. soooooo–if thats the case–i’d be MOREEE THAN HAPPY
to see Kim do way better than me!! if there’s anything in life i can
give her or teach her to maintain its DRIVE. drive to want more in life
than a few moments of careless fun. fun is when you’ve earned the right
to just throw things down and truly enjoy what you’ve worked long &
hard for. to be able to truly reap the rewards of HARD WORK! i know
she’ll be rebellious sooner or later–but i want her to look forward to
more than that.
ya’ll get what i mean!
I’M A SENIOR this semester!! ONE MORE YEAR YA’LL!! from PCT (patient care tech) to NURSE EXTERN–then finally to GRADUATE NURSE–and thennnnnnnn ((drumroll)) REGISTERED NURSE!! damnnnnnnnnnnn!!
can’t wait for that shit to happen!! its like i can’t grasp it just
yet–can’t look too far ahead of the future just to possibly be
disappointed. but….i feel like i can taste whats waiting for me.
waiting for me to just reach out and GRAB it!! grab it like a man
groping a strippers titty at a bar!! OoOoOOoo wweeeeee!!
this year is gonna be me & quang’s 9 year anniversary. 9 years and
thank God i finally got my ring. 5-6 years of living together & not
married yet. do i even really wanna get married? i know for sure i
don’t want the whole ceremony. i’m just not that type of girl. what i
have now–I LOVE!! after so many years and i still get butterflies. no
bullshit!! i fucking LOVE this man!!
GOD I LOVE THIS MAN!!
I go in pretty much exactly on time–230pm. Get my
change of shift report and I didn’t start doing my vital signs till
about 300pm. THATS LATE!! For me at least. I like to start @ 230pm cuz
we can start clocking in after 152pm. I figured…damn…I gonna be
behind. I kept telling myself–damn it Charlene, get your rhythm back.
The other tech will be done before you & you’ll be stuck doing all
these blood sugars. I ended up having only 5–good number, not too much
just enough. To find out..I ended up being ahead of the other tech. I’m sure her side was killer. We had 15 patients each–trust me..THATS A LOT!!
But my side was good. Had no trouble. The patients that needed assisted
care had family rooming in–which is A LOT of help! So I was real happy.
I was even more happy hearing the things my coworkers were saying.
The other tech had told me she was glad to have me back for the summer.
Several nurses told me they think I do a good job–saying it throughout
the shift. Then…during dinner a nurse that I didn’t even work with
during my shift came in & was saying good-bye. The usual have a
good night & be careful–then he came back into the break room and
said, “I just wanted to let you know I think you’re a hard worker. Its rare that you see someone willing to help the way you did.” See…this is what happened. The other tech went to dinner first so I had to help with her side. One of her patients ended up nonstop pooping when she left so of course…had to help
clean up. Didn’t mind…we do it ALL THE TIME!! Trust me..I’m not even
overexagerating…WE CLEAN UP ALL THE TIME!! The problem was the
daughter didn’t really want me to help. I told her I was there to help
her out. Her mom just kept going to the point we had to wipe it off the
bed. And the daughter’s technique was ALL WRONG!! She kept doing things
that could totally KILL HER BACK!! The way she lifted her up–turned her–EVERYTHING!! I just wanted to push her out of the way & tell her LEMME ME F*ING DO IT DAMN IT!!
But…she wanted to take charge so I let her go ahead & do
that..WHATEVER!! Anyhow….to make a long story short….that daughter
got on my last damn nerve!! She was talking to me as if I didn’t know
what the hell I was doing. Giving me directions as if I’m some kind of
dumb ass on the floor to do nothing. Hate people like that!! High &
mighty power hungry mother fuckers!! AHHHHHHHHH!
Ok…that out of the way…I still had a good time at work. Where do you ever hear that?? Somebody saying they had a good time @ work after cleaning up never-ending poop! It doesn’t matter…coming back to work I see now I LOVE what
I do. I love taking care of people! Very cliche sounding I know, but I
LOVE seeing that I assisted in helping others feel better in their time
of need. Got work again today…this time I’m no longer a PCT…..
I was leaning towards #1 at first especially with the coloring–but–now I realllllly like #3. Hmmmmmmmmmmm…….
new pix added to my photoblog…just CLICK
1) EVERY morning of nursing school
2) me & my buddy tony
3) my Mexican MAMI Lily
1) Lily & my Greek lady Anna
2) (left-right) Maury/Tony/Jay
3) Maury & his baby mamas-Lily/Anna
1) the girls
2) I <3 LILY
3) (left-right) me/Lily/Jay
4) the 2 coolest guys in the ENTIRE ADN program
1) OoOo weee…I see boobage!!
2) GET A ROOM!!!
I can’t believe its already the end of May. I’m going back to work but
this time as an extern. I’M EXCITED!! I’ve been able to spend more time
with Kim. Time that I missed out on during the semester since I pretty
much dedicated every WAKING hour to studying. Plus….spend time with
my mama. She’s been spoiling me wayyyyy too damn much. But..who can
complain…shit…NO COMPLAINTS HERE!!
Oh yah…..I got my ring from Quang too!! To me its perfect & oh so
dear…considering its 5 years LATE!! But…..BETTER LATE THAN NEVER!!
Its not a whole carat, but….its S2 clarity. Supposedly from what he’s
told me is its 2nd to the best to flawless. But….IT DOESN’T
MATTER….I FINALLY GOT MY RING!!
Now Father’s Day is coming up and I’M BROKE!! Got no kinda money to be
giving him something good. I really wanted to give him something as
good as my ring.
I really haven’t had anytime for xanga. As bad as that sounds. I can’t
comment to people’s xangas like I used to. Plus…honestly–I don’t
have the initiative to even do that anymore. Seems like I’m more down
for myspace. I might just make xanga more of a photo album and myspace
my blogger. More of my friends are on myspace so………….we’ll see
what will happen with “dear xanga..”
*****edit*****
I guess a meaningful jot I could put in here is…..
Its crazy how this semester is almost over. Sucks that I had to repeat
it, but kicks ass that I repeated it with much better people that have
helped me in ways they can’t even imagine. I’ve gained so much more out
of this semester than I have from many other moments in my life.
Plus…..a perspective into the profession that I willingly dedicate my
entire life to. A perspective that had been realized and strengthened
when my father passed, but strengthened even more so. More so to the
point that becoming a nurse brings tears to my eyes. Not tears of
fearing that I will, one day, be responsible for keeping up the best
care/well-being/and maintaining the life of an individual whom I’ve
NEVER met, but tears of joy that I will be blessed to perform such a
duty.
The thought of becoming a nurse overjoys me. As cliche as that may
sound, because I’m sure many students put up this type of
testimony…but if you really know me and understood everything I’ve
been through you’d know that each word that I utter about nursing comes
straight from my heart and the very depth of my soul.
Nursing is NO bullshit matter and people really need to understand its
not just some job you take because you know there will always be a job
there. If you are even remotely thinking about getting into this
profession please realize this:
**DO NOT go into your patients
room and huff and puff cuz he/she keeps shitting everywhere–ITS YOUR
JOB to put up with days like this
**DO NOT look at your patients as just another paycheck and just another day of work to get through!!
**DO look at each patient as an
individual that could very much be your
mother/father/sister/brother/spouse and care for them as you would your
loved one
**DO everything in your power to
give the uttmost BEST care possible and go home after each shift and
feel 100% fulfilled with yourself because you did a KICK ASS job
**DO realize that eventually,
that will be you in that hospital bed only hoping that those
responsible for your care would look at you & care for you with
nothing but respect
I want
this more than anything!! I’ve sacrificed time with my family. Time
that is PRICELESS, hours and hours and hours of nonstop studying.
HYPERTENSION and the brink of numerous times of nervous
breakdowns/anxiety attacks. I am not even bullshittin’!! This is the
real deal.
I get sick of dumb motherfuckers that get into nursing for the money!!
That say they care but they could give less of a shit. I get tired of
motherfuckers that would rather boss they’re PCTs around to wipe ass
because its they’re job!!
That has got to be the biggest bullshit excuse I’ve ever heard!! I am a
PCT motherfucker….first & foremost that is where I started. I
know what its like to have a full load of patients that you have to
turn EVERY 2 HRS because they can no longer do it!! I know what its
like to clean shit on a daily basis. But sooooo what!! The dirty part
of the job is nothing compared to seeing the look on my patients’ faces
after I’ve taken care of them to the best of my ability. To say
good-bye at the end of my shift and hear them say thank you. Now that
motherfuckers……is PRICELESS!!
But thats just life for yah, isn’t it?
At least the semester is almost over and I’ll be back to working
nonstop. Hopefully I’ll be able to pull 16 hr shifts like I did before.
The BEST thing ever is that my nurse EXTERNSHIP is all lined up, ready,
and waiting for me to hop on. I just gotta finish up the last 2 tests
for this semester and one last day of clinical and THATS IT!!
Externship here I COME!! A $3.00 raise HERE I COME!! I still gotta post
all my pictures, but thats gonna have to wait till I get done with
everything. There’s barely anybody that really updates xanga anymore,
just to put eye candy up and thats bout it. I know I’m prolly one of
those people though. So……I’m a big ass hypocrite. Eh….WHATEVER!!
Got no time to put anything meaningful up so………..till the semester is over…………..HIATUS!!
i’m still here, i’ve just been so busy with this semester….
Its been forever + a day since I’ve had a meaningful update. I can
still remember posting almost every day. Spilling my guts out like no
other as if I was gonna die in my sleep. <<—speaking of that I
have prolly a funny story to others, but a freaky ass situation to me
to talk about. Anyhowwwwww….
I still remember blogging about my secret fantasy sexual escapades I
wish I could make come true. Damn I was a hornball, still am but trying
to keep it on the DL since who knows what kinda random people or better
yet, people I DON’T WANT checking my xanga out reading about each and
every sexual fantasy that I wish I could perform to Angelina Jolie.
OoOoo weee, better stop there before my ass busts a nut!!
I’ve got tons…..and tons…..and even after all that still TONS of pictures I gotta upload.
Good things have been going on this semester though. I’m kicking ass,
well..kicking ass in my terms compared to me failing lecture last
semester. I haven’t failed a single Skills check off—-KNOCK ON WOOD!!
I got my midterm evaluation from my Clinical instructor and received a
97 on my Major Care Plan. If you’re in nursing school you’ll totally
understand what that means.
All in all, the semester has been going well. I’ve joined a bad ass
study group and I’ve been getting good grades on my lecture exams.
Ohhhh..better yet I got a PERFECT score on my Pharm test. Uhhhh huhhh…uh huh [does a funky dance]!! Yah, not just an A….I GOT A FUCKING 100!! Holw bad ass is that???? OH yahhhhhhhhhh!!
HIATUS…..for now…………………………………………………………till then———LOVE EVERYBODY!!
Can I just yell out loud………………………………………………..
SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lemme stand on a hilltop and yell every profanity I know exists in the
dictionary….rather than smoking like a chimney. A fire that never
runs out of lighter fluid, keeps burning to a neverending flame,
creating an even bigger whole in our ever depleting o-zone layer.
SORRY THIS MADE NO SENSE!! I’M IN A BAD MOOD!!
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