October 5, 2005

• I'm sorry its taken so long for me to comment anybody back, update....everything.

  
  

  Most of the problem is school. This semester SUCKS ASS!! I don't even mean that in a joking way. I thought I hated last semester, last semester really is NOTHING compared to all of this. All I had to worry about last semester was unit tests in lecture, skills check offs, and turning in my care plans. This semester is a whole different thing. There isn't even words that can totally describe it. Its like sensory overload that feels like you can never recover from. You look, search, and wait for that light at the end of the tunnel and all you keep doing is bump into dark walls.

  
  

  IT SUCKS!!

  
  

  Last semester I told myself that I would do good and get all A's or at least A's & B's this semester. Now all I want is for it to be OVER. I just want to pass.

  
  

  On top of everything for school I'm not able to work. Most of my time has to be dedicated to getting shit done this semester. I know I know...I should focus on school first & foremost, but....everybody needs money. I don't have health insurance now that I'm 22, I don't have enough hrs. at work to get health insurance. So....I applied for medicaid and I'm seriously praying that I'll get approved.

  
  

  Shit....a shitload of my paycheck is going to paying for medicaid,

  
  

  so why the hell not give it to me!!

  
  

  I didn't think I'd miss working, but I do. There are times when I wish I didn't have to be at school, I wish I was at work wiping ass. I get more gratification seeing that I've satisfied a patient doing the smallest task for them rather than being at school sitting in my lecture class hearing my teacher tell stories about her own damn personal life rather than getting on with the damn material!!

  
  

  Forget even talking about it anymore. My performance this semester just makes me mad. I know all my complaints stems from me being unprepared. But still....I wanna bitch & moan.

  
  

  My grandma & mom left for the Philippines this past Sunday. I didn't think I would miss them much cuz I thought of how I'd have no nagging, no repeat questions cuz of not being able to hear my answer, a small feeling of being on my own. But.....I miss the nagging. They'll be gone for a month, and its only been 2 days since they left...and I already miss them. Thank God they made it to the Philippines ok. Jet lagged, but they're doing good.

  
  

  THANK YOU GOD!!

  
  

  Kim is doing GREAT!! If you tell her how to spell her name a letter at a time " K I M B E R L Y..." she'll repeat each letter you told her in her cute voice and write each letter. To me, she writes it practically perfect...even with her backward E's.

  
  

  She talks sooooo much!! I can't believe she's talking as well as she is. I still remember when she used to just say "Dada." I'm so happy she's interested in educational activities rather than just watching regular TV all day. The one big problem she has is the exact same problem I had. She doesn't like criticism, getting told what to do, and she has a hell of a short temper!! She has to pick her own clothes, she has to match them herself....God...I don't remember being that independent when I was little. Well..she gets the short temper from me (and her Daddy, but he won't admit it) and her independence from her Daddy.

  
  

  Quang and I....doing good. Didn't do anything special for our 8 year anniversary. I feel bad....cuz we don't have an official day. There isn't an exact day when he asked me formally to be his "girlfriend." We didn't even expect for us to last this long. I know that when I met him, I didn't want to be with him in a long-term relationship. We got so sick of each other in the beginning I don't even know how we pulled through. Even before I was ever pregnant with Kim we had such problems. But...here we are.

  
  

  He gave me such a great birthday gift. He purchased a spa treatment with a facial, pedicure/manicure for me which lasts for 4 hrs. Of course I was hoping for a ring, but....thats ok. He took me and my family out to eat at the Cheesecake Factory. Then his brother, wife, kiddos...Quang's sisters, and Quang's friend & gf ate dinner together and got treated by Quoc & Co. (THANKS YA'LL!!) at one of my favorite Asian restaurants. YUM YUM!! I'm sure I gained at least 5 lbs. just that day.

  
  

  Its crazy how things have turned out. I got in touch with one of my closest friends/godsister recently and reminisced. If things had been different I would be finishing up my degree in nursing and would have attempted being a traveling nurse. Been ballin', jettin' around the U.S., living on my own. Or else, I would have joined the Navy like I wanted to right after high school. Going out whenever and where ever I want to. But.....

  
  

  I'm totally content, satisfied, and very

  
  

  happy that things ended up like this.

  
  

  Having Kim has made me into such a better woman. Without her I would have moved up from doing E* & acid to trying something even more stupid that could have left me brain dead & totally stupid. Without Quang, I might have met a man that demeaned me and tried to overpower me every chance he had. I wouldn't have attempted becoming an independent woman. I wouldn't be ok with myself, I'd just be wasting my life. Living the life I am right now....I don't feeling like I'm wasting any bit of myself. I'm working my way to a greater, better life. Hell yah its full of struggle, but so what. Its that struggle that makes me want it more. It makes me pull/push and fight even harder.

  
  

  Enough of the self-philosophy....on to the good stuff. PICTURES!!

  
  

  <<WE be CLUBBIN>>

  
  

  
  

  
  

  <<Daddy the great Baseball Player>>

  
  

  
  
  

  
  

  Quang plays softball with his companies team. They're not great, but....this is the first time playing for many of the players on the team. So......lets just leave it at that!!

  
  

  <<Rangers Game>>

  
  

  
  
  
  

  
  

  Quang thought it would be a good idea to check out a TX Rangers game the day before my birthday. We went last minute expecting to buy tickets @ the gate. Quang sees this one guy walking in the opposite direction we're going in, he approaches 2 guys walking in front of us and we overhear him saying he's got some tickets on the first level near the homeplate. If you buy those tickets online it would be $70+ each. This dude sold it to us for $35 each and we only needed 3 cuz Kim was "free." So....we got better seats than we were expecting. My camera isn't bad ass so I didn't get great pictures of Ichiro playing.

  
  

  Its so weird seeing him prepare to go up to the plate to bat. The way he swings and holds his stance when he's ready for the pitch, I seriously thought he was permanently pidgeon-toed. I didn't know that you can bat like that comfortably. Either way, it don't matter....HE'S STILL CUTE AS HELL!! He may be skinny & scrawny looking, but so what...something about him is just boyishly cute!!

  
  

  <<ITS MY BIRTHDAY...>>

  
  

  
  
  
  
  
  
  

  
  

  Of course ordered cheesecake and it was damnnnn good!!

  
  

  <<Kimmie & Cousins>>

  
  

  
  

  
  

  Kimmie's cousin Fate is shakin' it like a salt shaker!! Cutie patooty Vincent, who can resist that face and those big ol' lips!!

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