October 25, 2005

  • Most likely I won't be updating till this semester is over.


    Its been crazy and on my lecture tests I've been totally SUCKING!!


    I miss my mom & grandma...they're back in the Philippines, won't be back till Nov. 2..been gone since Oct. 2.


    Kim is doing GREAT!! She's growing so fast and she'll be 5 soon. AHHHHH!! FIVE!!


    Quang & I weren't doing good for a while. I had to study for one of the biggest tests this semester (Pharmacology test) and I had to look over 250 meds. I had the weekend to study and he ends up kicking my drugs cards everywhere and gets mad that I had them everywhere. Mad at me not doing what I'm supposed to have done or be doing (laundry/clean/etc.). So I got mad that he couldn't be understanding, ended up yelling...in front of Kim (of course made things worse and made me feel like the worst person in the world)....also made me feel like I was the wrong one. Anyhow.......everything was just going wrong. I had already FAILED both my 1st tow lecture tests then having the Pharm. test come up.....I HAD AN EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN!!


    I was seriously trying to prepare myself to not be with Quang. I kept repeating in my head over and over again..."now its really crunch time!! FUCK this bastard if he can't be understanding...fuck him for not being willing to just be there for me!!" I didn't want to be with him. I didn't appreciate the way he didn't even want to understand. It hurt like hell. I'm not going to school just for my own good. I'm going to help create a better life for US. Not me....US!! You would think by now with us being together for 8 years already he would be more emotionally supportive. HELL THE FUCK NO!!


    Anyhow....of course what ends up happening as time goes by?


    Well..first off....I passed my Pharm test!! OHHH HELL YAHHHH!! So I just felt too good and had to tell somebody so I told Quang. From then on.....we've been doing ok. Since the fight he's actually been helping me by giving me "quiet" time when I need to study. Surprisingly we've had a few deep conversations. Now the focus is just on moving out by next year....searching for a house starting in the spring (ugh!!).....finishing school (ugh x 2!!)....EVERYTHING!!


    I'm trying to find a 2nd job that I can work at during the week. I've got an offer at school...I don't even care how much they pay cuz I spend majority of my life there anyway, might as well get paid for being up there. Plus..its part time so I'll still get time to study. PLEASE GOD LET THIS HAPPEN!!


    I'm sorry I haven't been commenting like usual....if anything...when I have time I'll just update with pix. For now...I've got TONS of studying I gotta get done and just get through the rest of this semester.

Comments (10)

  • ur gay!! and i love youu=)

  • congrats on passing your pharm test!

  • don worry, the sem is almost ova!!!

  • be strong! you got this.....

    miss ya! sus

  • awww... so sorry to hear things werent going too good for u. but i know exactly what u were going thru. i guess these "nguyen" bros. are always gonna be the same huh. they just dont understand that everything we do, we do it to have a better life for us .. not cz we wanna use it as an excuse to get away. ugghhhh! but anyways congrats on passing that test! i know how stressful things can be. ttyl

  • sis, you can do it. You have gone through so much- it's hard at the moment but youll make it there! ~hugs~
    Yes, time flies by so quickly! Emily will be 5 yo next Feb and Holly will be a year old next month- can you believe it???

  • im very glad that you passed your test!! you are amazing. this semester will be over soon. i hope that he gets more understanding of what you are doing soon!! good luck sweetie!

     *hugs*

  • wow youve been going through alot lately! congrats on passing your test though! glad to hear that everything is better now too.
    HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

  • hey there stalker!! j/p.. i really dont know what we should do. i mean i really dont thnk that she even cares that its her bday. u know how they are. i wanna get her a cake but thatll be a big NO NO! so gimme a call. i got phuoc some bday presents though. so lemme know dude.

  • Hey mama...just wanted to letcha know this is my new sn...good luck w/finals and work.

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