May 1, 2006

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  I guess a meaningful jot I could put in here is.....

  Its crazy how this semester is almost over. Sucks that I had to repeat
  it, but kicks ass that I repeated it with much better people that have
  helped me in ways they can't even imagine. I've gained so much more out
  of this semester than I have from many other moments in my life.
  Plus.....a perspective into the profession that I willingly dedicate my
  entire life to. A perspective that had been realized and strengthened
  when my father passed, but strengthened even more so. More so to the
  point that becoming a nurse brings tears to my eyes. Not tears of
  fearing that I will, one day, be responsible for keeping up the best
  care/well-being/and maintaining the life of an individual whom I've
  NEVER met, but tears of joy that I will be blessed to perform such a
  duty.

  The thought of becoming a nurse overjoys me. As cliche as that may
  sound, because I'm sure many students put up this type of
  testimony...but if you really know me and understood everything I've
  been through you'd know that each word that I utter about nursing comes
  straight from my heart and the very depth of my soul.

  Nursing is NO bullshit matter and people really need to understand its
  not just some job you take because you know there will always be a job
  there. If you are even remotely thinking about getting into this
  profession please realize this:

  **DO NOT go into your patients
  room and huff and puff cuz he/she keeps shitting everywhere--ITS YOUR
  JOB to put up with days like this
  **DO NOT look at your patients as just another paycheck and just another day of work to get through!!
  **DO look at each patient as an
  individual that could very much be your
  mother/father/sister/brother/spouse and care for them as you would your
  loved one
  **DO everything in your power to
  give the uttmost BEST care possible and go home after each shift and
  feel 100% fulfilled with yourself because you did a KICK ASS job
  **DO realize that eventually,
  that will be you in that hospital bed only hoping that those
  responsible for your care would look at you & care for you with
  nothing but respect

  I want
  this more than anything!! I've sacrificed time with my family. Time
  that is PRICELESS, hours and hours and hours of nonstop studying.
  HYPERTENSION and the brink of numerous times of nervous
  breakdowns/anxiety attacks. I am not even bullshittin'!! This is the
  real deal.

  I get sick of dumb motherfuckers that get into nursing for the money!!
  That say they care but they could give less of a shit. I get tired of
  motherfuckers that would rather boss they're PCTs around to wipe ass
  because its they're job!!
  That has got to be the biggest bullshit excuse I've ever heard!! I am a
  PCT motherfucker....first & foremost that is where I started. I
  know what its like to have a full load of patients that you have to
  turn EVERY 2 HRS because they can no longer do it!! I know what its
  like to clean shit on a daily basis. But sooooo what!! The dirty part
  of the job is nothing compared to seeing the look on my patients' faces
  after I've taken care of them to the best of my ability. To say
  good-bye at the end of my shift and hear them say thank you. Now that
  motherfuckers......is PRICELESS!!

  ---

  
  this semester has been full of ups & downs...AS USUAL!

  But thats just life for yah, isn't it?

  At least the semester is almost over and I'll be back to working
  nonstop. Hopefully I'll be able to pull 16 hr shifts like I did before.
  The BEST thing ever is that my nurse EXTERNSHIP is all lined up, ready,
  and waiting for me to hop on. I just gotta finish up the last 2 tests
  for this semester and one last day of clinical and THATS IT!!
  Externship here I COME!! A $3.00 raise HERE I COME!! I still gotta post
  all my pictures, but thats gonna have to wait till I get done with
  everything. There's barely anybody that really updates xanga anymore,
  just to put eye candy up and thats bout it. I know I'm prolly one of
  those people though. So......I'm a big ass hypocrite. Eh....WHATEVER!!

  Got no time to put anything meaningful up so...........till the semester is over..............HIATUS!!
  

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