damn–long ass time since my last entry
i seriously thought i’d be able to blog more since its the summer–but since the summer began all i do is work NONSTOP then
spend time w/family when i get the chance. I haven’t even had the
chance to catch up on my drinking habit–HEHEHE–as if i even had one
work is BADASS!! i loveeeee being there–even
on the worst of days i still love it. when i’m working i feel
useful–and wanted. its not like when all i’m doing is studying. when
its school time i just feel like i’m working for free.
to catch up on things–kim graduated from pre-K. she’s gonna be starting KINDERGARTEN this
year. i’m pretty sure i’m gonna be able to bring her in for her 1st
day. might even hang around for a little bit just to make sure she’s
ok. i’m sooooo nervous for her. she does great in her pre-K program
she’s in now but the class is smaller and more focused on each
individual child. now she has a more serious curriculum & slightly
more pressure. i know its all about “satisfactory & unsatisfactory” but i have HIGH hopes for my child. I KNOW I KNOW!! thats NOT good–its
too much pressure. to me–depending on the pressure–maybe it’ll be a
good thing?!? i’m gonna try my damndest to keep it in control–but i
expect my baby to be in the honor roll/honor society. i expect her to
strive for WANTING to be in the talented & gifted group. i’m want
her to strive for more than what i’ve earned for myself.
thats what pushes me so much to earn my degree. its been a known fact
that children raised in a family that focuses attention on education
end up working hard & achieving higher degrees than their parents
before them. soooooo–if thats the case–i’d be MOREEE THAN HAPPY
to see Kim do way better than me!! if there’s anything in life i can
give her or teach her to maintain its DRIVE. drive to want more in life
than a few moments of careless fun. fun is when you’ve earned the right
to just throw things down and truly enjoy what you’ve worked long &
hard for. to be able to truly reap the rewards of HARD WORK! i know
she’ll be rebellious sooner or later–but i want her to look forward to
more than that.
ya’ll get what i mean!
I’M A SENIOR this semester!! ONE MORE YEAR YA’LL!! from PCT (patient care tech) to NURSE EXTERN–then finally to GRADUATE NURSE–and thennnnnnnn ((drumroll)) REGISTERED NURSE!! damnnnnnnnnnnn!!
can’t wait for that shit to happen!! its like i can’t grasp it just
yet–can’t look too far ahead of the future just to possibly be
disappointed. but….i feel like i can taste whats waiting for me.
waiting for me to just reach out and GRAB it!! grab it like a man
groping a strippers titty at a bar!! OoOoOOoo wweeeeee!!
this year is gonna be me & quang’s 9 year anniversary. 9 years and
thank God i finally got my ring. 5-6 years of living together & not
married yet. do i even really wanna get married? i know for sure i
don’t want the whole ceremony. i’m just not that type of girl. what i
have now–I LOVE!! after so many years and i still get butterflies. no
bullshit!! i fucking LOVE this man!!
–his pure simplicity w/as little complication as possible
–the smell of his old spice deodorant
–his big ass head
–how much of an outdoor man he is
–MR. FIXIT
–the protective feeling i have when i’m around him
–WONDERFUL FATHER!!
GOD I LOVE THIS MAN!!
i’ve been seeing some stupid bullshit online. i may sound like some old
woman expressing what i’m bout to express–but seriously–its annoying
as hell!!
some shit is sometime–i don’t get how some females would wanna waste
their time reciprocating stupid bullshit. ITS IGNORANT!! and if there’s something that annoys me more than anything its a bunch of asians (actually AZNs) showing how ignorant truly respectable/proud ASIANS can be!!
how is it so many kids these days have such little values. regardless
of what kinda background you come from–there’s a way to turn a shitty
life into something/somebody great. having a shitty ass life should be
more reason & DRIVE to want something better. to strive for a
better life!! instead of wasting valuable time & energy–time that
mannnnny people don’t realize is just tick-tick-ticking away before you
know it you’re at the end of your string wishing/regretting you could
have done more. SURE SURE–many people out there talk their shit saying
I WON’T REGRET!!
but when you’re on your death bed surrounded (or maybe NOT surrounded)
by those who love you–or when you’re in the split second of a moment
that puts you into that situation to look back on everything in
life…..ASK YOURSELF–have i truly done everything in my power to live life to the fullest?!?
everybody has had that lecture–but i truly wish every dumb ass person
(especially young girls) could spend ONE WEEK in a hospital unit full
of dying patients–to see how many individuals out there DIE ALONE!! no bullshit!! young folks don’t realize their own mortality. most NEVER will!! its a sad, sad thing–to see so many people that have soooo much potential make NOTHING out of themselves.
stupid ass online banger motherfuckers. even if you’re gonna back it up
in person its nothing but stupid ass bullshit. wanna look big & bad
in front of your friends. wanna feel accomplished inside for being able
to kick some ass. and for what?? some dumb ass shit talking that
could’ve been squashed by just blowing off the bullshit. eh–why even
waste my breath when i know good & well that dumb ass bitches will
NEVER learn! there’s always gonna be some stupid ass broads out there
talking their shit–wanna to back up stupid bullshit–and NOT MAKING
ANYTHING OUTTA THEMSELVES!!
