Month: July 2006

  • damn–long ass time since my last entry

    i seriously thought i’d be able to blog more since its the summer–but since the summer began all i do is work NONSTOP then
    spend time w/family when i get the chance. I haven’t even had the
    chance to catch up on my drinking habit–HEHEHE–as if i even had one

    work is BADASS!! i loveeeee being there–even
    on the worst of days i still love it. when i’m working i feel
    useful–and wanted. its not like when all i’m doing is studying. when
    its school time i just feel like i’m working for free.

    to catch up on things–kim graduated from pre-K. she’s gonna be starting KINDERGARTEN this
    year. i’m pretty sure i’m gonna be able to bring her in for her 1st
    day. might even hang around for a little bit just to make sure she’s
    ok. i’m sooooo nervous for her. she does great in her pre-K program
    she’s in now but the class is smaller and more focused on each
    individual child. now she has a more serious curriculum & slightly
    more pressure. i know its all about “satisfactory & unsatisfactory” but i have HIGH hopes for my child. I KNOW I KNOW!! thats NOT good–its
    too much pressure. to me–depending on the pressure–maybe it’ll be a
    good thing?!? i’m gonna try my damndest to keep it in control–but i
    expect my baby to be in the honor roll/honor society. i expect her to
    strive for WANTING to be in the talented & gifted group. i’m want
    her to strive for more than what i’ve earned for myself.

    thats what pushes me so much to earn my degree. its been a known fact
    that children raised in a family that focuses attention on education
    end up working hard & achieving higher degrees than their parents
    before them. soooooo–if thats the case–i’d be MOREEE THAN HAPPY
    to see Kim do way better than me!! if there’s anything in life i can
    give her or teach her to maintain its DRIVE. drive to want more in life
    than a few moments of careless fun. fun is when you’ve earned the right
    to just throw things down and truly enjoy what you’ve worked long &
    hard for. to be able to truly reap the rewards of HARD WORK! i know
    she’ll be rebellious sooner or later–but i want her to look forward to
    more than that.

    ya’ll get what i mean!

    I’M A SENIOR this semester!! ONE MORE YEAR YA’LL!! from PCT (patient care tech) to NURSE EXTERN–then finally to GRADUATE NURSE–and thennnnnnnn ((drumroll)) REGISTERED NURSE!! damnnnnnnnnnnn!!
    can’t wait for that shit to happen!! its like i can’t grasp it just
    yet–can’t look too far ahead of the future just to possibly be
    disappointed. but….i feel like i can taste whats waiting for me.
    waiting for me to just reach out and GRAB it!! grab it like a man
    groping a strippers titty at a bar!! OoOoOOoo wweeeeee!!

    this year is gonna be me & quang’s 9 year anniversary. 9 years and
    thank God i finally got my ring. 5-6 years of living together & not
    married yet. do i even really wanna get married? i know for sure i
    don’t want the whole ceremony. i’m just not that type of girl. what i
    have now–I LOVE!! after so many years and i still get butterflies. no
    bullshit!! i fucking LOVE this man!!

    –his rough hands
    –his pure simplicity w/as little complication as possible
    –the smell of his old spice deodorant
    –his big ass head
    –how much of an outdoor man he is
    –MR. FIXIT
    –the protective feeling i have when i’m around him
    –WONDERFUL FATHER!!

    GOD I LOVE THIS MAN!!



    i’ve been seeing some stupid bullshit online. i may sound like some old
    woman expressing what i’m bout to express–but seriously–its annoying
    as hell!!

    stupid young ass broads & their dumbass ONLINE banging

    ** as entertaining as
    some shit is sometime–i don’t get how some females would wanna waste
    their time reciprocating stupid bullshit. ITS IGNORANT!! and if there’s something that annoys me more than anything its a bunch of asians (actually AZNs) showing how ignorant truly respectable/proud ASIANS can be!!

    SERIOUSLY!!
    how is it so many kids these days have such little values. regardless
    of what kinda background you come from–there’s a way to turn a shitty
    life into something/somebody great. having a shitty ass life should be
    more reason & DRIVE to want something better. to strive for a
    better life!! instead of wasting valuable time & energy–time that
    mannnnny people don’t realize is just tick-tick-ticking away before you
    know it you’re at the end of your string wishing/regretting you could
    have done more. SURE SURE–many people out there talk their shit saying
    I WON’T REGRET!!
    but when you’re on your death bed surrounded (or maybe NOT surrounded)
    by those who love you–or when you’re in the split second of a moment
    that puts you into that situation to look back on everything in
    life…..ASK YOURSELF–have i truly done everything in my power to live life to the fullest?!?

    its cliche &
    everybody has had that lecture–but i truly wish every dumb ass person
    (especially young girls) could spend ONE WEEK in a hospital unit full
    of dying patients–to see how many individuals out there DIE ALONE!! no bullshit!! young folks don’t realize their own mortality. most NEVER will!! its a sad, sad thing–to see so many people that have soooo much potential make NOTHING out of themselves.

    i just had to let that out. thats been getting on my LAST DAMN NERVE!!
    stupid ass online banger motherfuckers. even if you’re gonna back it up
    in person its nothing but stupid ass bullshit. wanna look big & bad
    in front of your friends. wanna feel accomplished inside for being able
    to kick some ass. and for what?? some dumb ass shit talking that
    could’ve been squashed by just blowing off the bullshit. eh–why even
    waste my breath when i know good & well that dumb ass bitches will
    NEVER learn! there’s always gonna be some stupid ass broads out there
    talking their shit–wanna to back up stupid bullshit–and NOT MAKING
    ANYTHING OUTTA THEMSELVES!!